HylianHero93May 17, 2017 at 7:53 pm #31911
(If Dan and Casey read this on the HS Twitch stream, please read on Friday 5/19. Hope it’s not too long!)
I’ve been struggling with an addiction to porn for a long, long time. I’ve only realized it was a problem 4 or 5 years ago, but the first time I saw pornographic images was when I was 12. The problem to be honest is not so much the content itself, but what I use it for (I won’t go into detail but y’all know what happens when you give porn to any young, unwed male), and feel ashamed and disgusted after every relapse, to the point where I imagine killing myself (of which theres no danger thankfully). A few years ago I was in church and the message inspired me to confess my struggle to the pastor, and afterwards, everyone on my Facebook friends list. That helped immensely for a few months, but for whatever reason I fell back into it and since then have not gone more than a month without relapsing.
The past month or so, I’ve been lucky to go more than a day without succumbing to it. It’s gotten to the point where any remotely suggestive image can set me off, even a random thought, and have no willpower to stop myself from feeding this urge. I am starting to see in myself the detrimental effects that porn consumption takes on a person. I’ve been more easily irritated and irritable more often and I can see my memory suffer from it as well. It’s started to corrupt the way I view not just women in general, but even worse the way I view my female friends. I’ve gotten into the habit of sexualizing women, seeing them as objects, and even imagining sexual acts with women I know, good friends of mine even. I think what I’m most disappointed by is that I know the effects porn has on one’s brain, the awful things that happen within the industry and what it feeds into, and how it affects society’s view of women, and that Im only contributing to all of that and the demand for porn by consuming it. I don’t know what else to do, where to turn. Thanks for reading.
P.S. I’d been meaning to create an account and post this on the Support Wall for a while, but what pushed me to finally do so was Dan mentioning his struggle on the last stream, so thank you Dan!idanonymityMay 18, 2017 at 12:44 am #31917
Many of those porn stars are men dressed up in drag. Body suits molded to look like women. I am not interested in men, even in female body suits. It is a waste of time often to guess who is real and who is not because of all the suits, airbrushing and cgi many low budget films actually are composed of. Worse the voices are overdubbed, or police are overdubbing the voice to enjoy the opportunity to mock you while spying on you.
Why do you think porn has become prominent? Relationships appear harder to come by, meeting people is hard unless you are in a privileged bracket of desirables. Today’s focus is on your career, being a worker, rather than starting a family or your relationship being the center of your life. This new culture promotes working as the ultimate in identifying ourselves. Incredibly communist in propaganda. Or promiscuity to either exploit us for sex work or agitate those of us living without sex to milk for profit by selling us attention or pornography.
Some call it Zionist. Others Communist. Others greedy.
It is not healthy. People are taught to fear each other and be distant. This new culture is harmful but it refuses to admit just how poisonous it is towards its victims.HOPEFORAFUTERMay 18, 2017 at 12:24 pm #31925
I know what it’s like tp be addicted to porn to it’s hard but people to get over the addictionHannibals_dinnerplateMay 18, 2017 at 3:36 pm #31936
I’m glad you’re able to be open and honest about this.
While I don’t struggle with this addiction, I do struggle with others which I’m sure you’ve heard about on previous streams.
This addiction is just like any other, and therefore begins like any other. By admitting you’re addicted, which you have! It’s great you’ve taken that first step, even if it is for the second time. Relapse is apart of recovery dude, so don’t hate yourself for slipping up because it’s almost guaranteed to happen. But I don’t want that to discourage you.
Do you have someone you can be accountable to? Someone who will hold you to your word, but won’t condemn you for screwing up occasionally? If not I think you should find one.
Also there are plenty counselors out there who specialize in this addiction, maybe you could look into starting with one?
Everyone at heartsupport loves you, don’t forget that.
Hold Fast friend, we believe in you!
-HannibalMiniMay 20, 2017 at 11:56 am #31972
I’ve heard of people talking about this stuff and it’s impossible to stop cold turkey.
if you don’t mind me asking oh often do you do it?
For example, let’s say if you do it 3 times in on day try to go down to 1 slowly, then slowly decrease.
I’ve heard it’s more common in men.
AdamHOPEFORAFUTERMay 20, 2017 at 12:06 pm #31973
that doesn’t work for meMiniMay 20, 2017 at 12:13 pm #31974
What about if you block the pornographic websites from your Internet. Via your browser or logging on to your ISP Control Website to block the sites.
I’ve heard people under 18 like the idea of porn because it’s being mischievous since the law asks for you to be 18 and it deals with you hormones. as people as it’s natural but sometimes can be too much. I’d say don’t stop completely because it could have a negative effect on how you respond to your hormones.
adamHOPEFORAFUTERMay 20, 2017 at 12:26 pm #31975
AND SOME DO IT BECAUSE THEY ARE ALONE. BUT I CAN’T DO THAT BECAUSE MY PARENTS WOULD FINED OUT AND i DONT WAT THEM TO.elisfire_bisexualMay 20, 2017 at 6:07 pm #31980
Hey try what mini said. There are some settings on ur devices to block certain websites. Like they do at school it will stop u from beinging able to access these dipicable websites. That’s what I did when u started to get addicted when I was 13.HOPEFORAFUTERMay 20, 2017 at 6:09 pm #31981
I’ll try thatthanks
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