HylianHero93May 17, 2017 at 7:53 pm #31911
(If Dan and Casey read this on the HS Twitch stream, please read on Friday 5/19. Hope it’s not too long!)
I’ve been struggling with an addiction to porn for a long, long time. I’ve only realized it was a problem 4 or 5 years ago, but the first time I saw pornographic images was when I was 12. The problem to be honest is not so much the content itself, but what I use it for (I won’t go into detail but y’all know what happens when you give porn to any young, unwed male), and feel ashamed and disgusted after every relapse, to the point where I imagine killing myself (of which theres no danger thankfully). A few years ago I was in church and the message inspired me to confess my struggle to the pastor, and afterwards, everyone on my Facebook friends list. That helped immensely for a few months, but for whatever reason I fell back into it and since then have not gone more than a month without relapsing.
The past month or so, I’ve been lucky to go more than a day without succumbing to it. It’s gotten to the point where any remotely suggestive image can set me off, even a random thought, and have no willpower to stop myself from feeding this urge. I am starting to see in myself the detrimental effects that porn consumption takes on a person. I’ve been more easily irritated and irritable more often and I can see my memory suffer from it as well. It’s started to corrupt the way I view not just women in general, but even worse the way I view my female friends. I’ve gotten into the habit of sexualizing women, seeing them as objects, and even imagining sexual acts with women I know, good friends of mine even. I think what I’m most disappointed by is that I know the effects porn has on one’s brain, the awful things that happen within the industry and what it feeds into, and how it affects society’s view of women, and that Im only contributing to all of that and the demand for porn by consuming it. I don’t know what else to do, where to turn. Thanks for reading.
P.S. I’d been meaning to create an account and post this on the Support Wall for a while, but what pushed me to finally do so was Dan mentioning his struggle on the last stream, so thank you Dan!gjhfgdjgMay 18, 2017 at 12:44 am #31917
The internet has resources.HOPEFORAFUTERMay 18, 2017 at 12:24 pm #31925
I know what it’s like tp be addicted to porn to it’s hard but people to get over the addictionHannibals_dinnerplateMay 18, 2017 at 3:36 pm #31936
I’m glad you’re able to be open and honest about this.
While I don’t struggle with this addiction, I do struggle with others which I’m sure you’ve heard about on previous streams.
This addiction is just like any other, and therefore begins like any other. By admitting you’re addicted, which you have! It’s great you’ve taken that first step, even if it is for the second time. Relapse is apart of recovery dude, so don’t hate yourself for slipping up because it’s almost guaranteed to happen. But I don’t want that to discourage you.
Do you have someone you can be accountable to? Someone who will hold you to your word, but won’t condemn you for screwing up occasionally? If not I think you should find one.
Also there are plenty counselors out there who specialize in this addiction, maybe you could look into starting with one?
Everyone at heartsupport loves you, don’t forget that.
Hold Fast friend, we believe in you!
-HannibalMiniMay 20, 2017 at 11:56 am #31972
I’ve heard of people talking about this stuff and it’s impossible to stop cold turkey.
if you don’t mind me asking oh often do you do it?
For example, let’s say if you do it 3 times in on day try to go down to 1 slowly, then slowly decrease.
I’ve heard it’s more common in men.
AdamHOPEFORAFUTERMay 20, 2017 at 12:06 pm #31973
that doesn’t work for meMiniMay 20, 2017 at 12:13 pm #31974
What about if you block the pornographic websites from your Internet. Via your browser or logging on to your ISP Control Website to block the sites.
I’ve heard people under 18 like the idea of porn because it’s being mischievous since the law asks for you to be 18 and it deals with you hormones. as people as it’s natural but sometimes can be too much. I’d say don’t stop completely because it could have a negative effect on how you respond to your hormones.
adamHOPEFORAFUTERMay 20, 2017 at 12:26 pm #31975
AND SOME DO IT BECAUSE THEY ARE ALONE. BUT I CAN’T DO THAT BECAUSE MY PARENTS WOULD FINED OUT AND i DONT WAT THEM TO.TomatoMay 20, 2017 at 6:07 pm #31980
Hey try what mini said. There are some settings on ur devices to block certain websites. Like they do at school it will stop u from beinging able to access these dipicable websites. That’s what I did when u started to get addicted when I was 13.HOPEFORAFUTERMay 20, 2017 at 6:09 pm #31981
I’ll try thatthanksfrylfeishilfeMay 23, 2017 at 4:54 pm #32051
I completely understand where you’re at. I was there for years. The self hate is awful and frustrating and leads to more self hate, especially when you understand everything you mentioned about the industry. I think what finally got me on the road to freedom (i’m not sure if i’ll ever be completely free, because addictions suck like that) was finally getting so fed up with myself and the endless cycle. I just wanted out, so I put a stake in the ground and ended a potential relationship that was pretty much founded on mistakes that stemmed from addiction to porn and stuff. I also got an accountability partner, which in the past I have hated, but it’s actually okay now. Also, something that helps me stay strong and continue to heal the effects it had on my mind is staying in the Word. I’ve found that the more time I spend reading my bible and praying, the more I see myself turning back into the person I was before porn. Its an incredible process to be a part of; don’t get me wrong, its hard as heck and I’ve continued to mess up a lot, but there’s hope now.
I hope this helps. Hold fast, we believe in you friend.
MaddyHOPEFORAFUTERMay 23, 2017 at 5:10 pm #32053
you are so lucky to have some one who cares. where as I have no one.AVJRMay 27, 2017 at 12:26 pm #32185
Hylian, I will pray for you. I am in the same boat as you. These past two days, I watched porn again, and masturbated three times. It’s hard to quit, but I know God is faithful for us, and He will help us to overcome our addictions. I barely use this forum, but I will do my best to be active. Stay strong, my friend. 😌AVJRMay 29, 2017 at 12:37 pm #32224
Can someone pray for me? Around 2 and 4 in the morning, I watched porn again, and masturbated twice. I really don’t want to do this anymore. I know God is faithful to me. Thank you for reading, and have a great Memorial Day. 😔a_girlMay 29, 2017 at 4:29 pm #32234
if those things don’t work. you just need you alone and nothing else. take a walk by yourself. it has helped my friendsFriendlyKiwiMay 29, 2017 at 5:13 pm #32236
I am going to come at this from a different perspective to many others, I don’t believe there is such a thing as a porn addiction, everyone gets sexual urges, its just a natural part of being human, no matter how much you try to stop them, they are not going to go away, as for sexualizing your friends unfortunately when you get close to someone or even just if you see someone random down the street, you can often find them attractive, it’s a natural part of the body that wants to reproduce.
It is okay to masturbate, it is healthy to masturbate, you are human with human needs.HOPEFORAFUTERMay 30, 2017 at 11:06 am #32238
ok I’m sorry but you are so wrong!!!!!!! it is a addiction people need to find people to help them through this and what friendly Kiwi just said isn’t helpful at all, in fact it is a lie!!!!!!!!!!!! find some oneHylianHero93June 3, 2017 at 2:10 am #32330
@hannibals_dinnerplate thanks a bunch for replying and for the words of encouragement, I really appreciate it. I do have a good friend I’ve talked to about this who has helped keep me accountable (and I, him) and I’m going to start talking to him again about it.
@frylfeishilfe thanks so much for replying Maddy, I am definitely at that fed up stage. I really need to break off of social media for a good amount of time, as it’s been a significant trigger for me regarding porn, but it’s hard for me as a photographer because I use Instagram so much for that. I definitely do need to spend more time in the word and just spending time with God, it’s something I have been kicking myself more for not doing.
@avjr thanks for replying, I will be praying for you as well. Stay strong.Furious UriasJune 4, 2017 at 10:37 pm #32349
It is an awful industry that continues to warp societal perception. Although, somehow it seems to keel reeling us back in. The act of masturbation is normal, as we are human and have urges. Porn becomes harmful when the psychosomatic response to viewing it bleeds into our life. Love faces eradication because of porn because relationships are becoming centered by sex. Thus, the need for emotional and mental connection is being replaced by the physical. I am guilty of this as well, as recently as this afternoon. The feelings of shame, disgust and helplessness can be overbearing and spiral into a self-loathing state. Heed the advice of Mini by blocking certain web addresses. Also, try and be patient with yourself. As frylfeishilfe and Hannibal aforementioned, relapsing and messing up is inevitable. Beating yourself up over it will only exacerbate the problem. We are here to get you through your struggle! You will overcome this. Hold Fast, brother.
– Furious Urias
P.S. – my inbox is always open if some days are particularly hard and you need help. I’m fighting this same battle.
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